1.16.24 – haibun…Somehow this morning

Somehow this morning, I walked away from the undone things, and with a will to sit, I simply sat with Beth Johnson and others. I sat and walked and sat and walked and sat. I cannot remember the last time I sat in practice in this way for hours…

opening my eyes, I am distracted by the 10,000 things
closing my eyes, I am distracted by endless thoughts
Oh! where can I truly rest?

Almost nineteen years ago, after moving to Redwood City, mothering two boys under 3 years at the time, finding the Insight Meditation Center, somehow finding my way to their multi-day retreat at Jikoji Zen Center… I sat and walked and sat and walked and sat…

only this—
a flowing breath
and creaking bones